Cray
As in crazy. Sometimes I feel like I am on just this side of Cray.
This tiny dump of a house is starting to get to me.
This yucky weather is starting to get to me.
Planning the new house is starting to get to me.
And in light of what just happened in Boston I feel stupid complaining. But I think it just brought my sadness to the surface.
I wanted to move back to Ohio. I wanted it for my kids, and for myself as well.
But I feel like I left a big chunk of my heart in North Carolina.
I know it wasn’t the right time for us to be there.
And as I prepare to head back down to meet the movers in Chapel Hill I feel like an emotional mess.
Such conflicting feelings.
I know if our house here was more livable things would feel so much better. But it’s such a long ways off.
It’s hard being a grown-up. And trying to make the best decisions. For everyone.
Baby steps.
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Tiffany | 17th Apr 13
I feel like I should quote one of my faves, “just keep swimming”(gotta love Dory)…its all gonna be good. Drive safe my friend.
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Hannah | 17th Apr 13
You are so Cray-Cray.
Tiffany’s right. Just keep swimming. That’s my motto too…you have some really deep friends.
NC is awesome. It’s beautiful. You loved it.
Ohio is awesome. It’s beautiful. You love it.
You don’t have to choose. You can love them both. You took a big leap of faith to move to NC and then another one to move back. Your kids will remember that. They will know that it’s awesome to follow your dreams no matter where they lead you. That’s pretty awesome 🙂
See ya later Cray-Cray!
Laura h | 18th Apr 13
So sorry you’re feeling blue. Hang in there!
kristen | 21st Apr 13
You hit the nail on the head. It *is* hard being a grown up and making tough, suck-y decisions. I think that it’s awesome that you are so honest. Hang in there! (p.s. does this mean your house sold?)